Saturday, October 12, 2013

So, yeah.

It's been almost a year since I last posted on here, but thought today merited an update, primarily for those few of you from my SL that aren't on Facebook, or at least aren't friended to me there. I haven't been around much, but I've been dealing with a heavy workload, and Mom's health issues.

My mother passed away this morning, after a bout with pancreatic cancer.  She died peacefully, in her sleep, as she always said she wanted to go, with the sun streaming in her window on her face, before the cancer got to the point she was medicated out of her mind from the pain.  It was weeks earlier than expected, but a blessing, given what I know about the terminal phases of pancreatic cancer from a stint as a private duty sitter for a nursing agency years ago.

This is my favorite picture of Mom that I have.  It was taken for her "Sweet Sixteen Debutante Ball" in 1955. I think you can see the life of pain she had anticipated in her beautiful dark brown eyes.  You can also see just a hint of her humor, ghosting around her lips.

June 4,1939 to October 12, 2013

Rest in Peace, Momma.
I love you.

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Again with the neglect!

     Well, I've been neglecting this blog, but for good reason.  As you all know from my last post, my RL mother had a kidney removed, due to finding cancer in it.  She is doing well, but has been staying at my sister's house, which is all on one floor.  Mom's house has 13 steps just leading up to the front door, due to a raised basement in the front, so it's just not been feasible for her to be home.  I've only been able to see her once in the last month, when she had to come to our hometown to see a couple of her local doctors, and my sister brought her by my work to see me for a few minutes.  My work schedule doesn't allow me to go out of town to see her, as it's almost a two hour drive each way.
     As some of you know, from my very brief forays into SL over the last two months, I've not been feeling well.  It started as a what seemed to be a congestive lung issue, but gradually spread to dull pains in my chest, my arms, and my lower jaw.  I was pulling 55+ hour work weeks (salaried management position... woot... heh.) in order to accommodate letting my assistant managers have needed days off around college schedules, personal issues, etc..  However, this all culminated in me having a really bad spell last Tuesday.  I left work, having fortunately scheduled myself a short day that day, and went straight to the ER.  I'd been putting off doing that, since I haven't had insurance in a long, long time, and am just now starting to get back on my feet financially from losing the last good paying job I had almost three years ago.
     Anyway, the hospital here determined that my troponin levels were slightly elevated.  Troponin is a regulatory protein that the heart "leaks" if there is damage due to some trauma to the heart... i.e. a mild heart attack.  They performed a heart catheterization on me, and determined that I had blockages in the arteries in my heart, but they don't have the facilities to perform either angioplasty or stents here, so I was taken by ambulance to a hospital in the city the next morning, where they performed a second heart catheter, but were unable to get to the blockage.  A third, successful attempt was made Wednesday night last week, and I now have a stent in the right coronary artery, which was 99.9% blocked, and in the left main coronary artery, which was 85% blocked.  Had the third catheterization not been successful, they had a team standing by to do a coronary bypass surgery.  BOY, am I glad it didn't come down to that!
     The doctors at the hospital said the damage was minimal to my heart from the actual heart attack, though, which is a good thing.  I feel better than I've felt in a long time, due to the stents, and with exercise and proper eating, should actually be healthier than I've been in years, over time.  I won't return to work, officially, until next Wednesday, but I went over today for a meeting with the corporate franchise representative.  My doctors and nurses told me that since I know my own body best, just to do what I can, and rest when I need to..... advice I've been following.
     I've mentioned before that my bosses were great guys.  I just want to reaffirm that.  Both called me numerous times at the hospital, and neither mentioned work, other than that they missed me in my capacity there.  They were/are genuinely concerned about my health, and about me as a person.  That's a nice departure from the last "real" job I had, where I was  merely a cog in their personal financial gain machine.
     Anyway, apparently, if I take a little responsibility for my own health now, I'll live.  I'm in such good spirits that I told Derren we could already start decorating for Christmas in SL.  Heh.  Must be the drugs.  *winks*

*Peace and love to everyone, and I miss everyone very much*
P.S.   Hopefully, I'll get to catch up with several of you that I don't talk to on Facebook daily on my RL account in the near future inworld, as I have a whole week to kill before being released to go back to work!

Thursday, September 20, 2012

Ah, it's been a busy late summer.....

    First off, I want to apologize to everyone for not being around SL much.  I guess Derren and I both have kind of gotten bored with it.  Since we have daily RL contact on FB, and the occassional Skype session, it's been enough, most of the time.  We do log in occassionally  for this and that, and I'd like to have more SL time to build, but things have been very hectic in my RL.
     First, they made me the General Manager at work.  Well, this included a hefty pay raise, but also a hefty increase in hours worked/week.  This is a good thing, all the way around.
      Now for the bad news.  My mother has not been feeling well for several months, and when I finally got her to go to a specialist, and not her usual doctors, we found out that she has urothelial carcinoma of the kidney, which is basically a type of bladder cancer.  It's been a whirlwind of doctors, tests, etc., resulting in her having surgery next Wednesday, with an extended stay in the hospital afterward, then perhaps an assisted living center for a while.  While her urological surgeon, whom I refer to as "Dr. Doogie McDreamy Houser"  (His real name being Becker... heh, but he looks to be about 24, though he is pushing forty, and adorable!!!!), is positive he can get the cancer, since it's in the very early stages, he is worried about Mom's heart condition, and possible side effects from that, or even another major stroke during the surgery.  As most of you know, I'm not one to get overly publicly emotional, so lets just say that I've gone into total Scorpio coldness, emotionally, and have my nervous breakdown scheduled for the first Monday after all this is over.

Love to all, and I miss everyone horribly,


Well, the surgery went better than expected, and they did most of it robotically.  Mom is still outta her mind on meds, which is both sad and hilarious at times (like the HUGE  man, also on meds, that asked her to dinner, while she was giggling like a school girl... heehee!). All in all, it was a success, though they are keeping her in the heart telemetry unit until her release, due to her susceptibility to heart attacks.  Thank you one and all for the kind, supportive words inworld (I get them via email, when I can't log in), and in person, through personal email, and on Facebook.  Love to everyone!


Sunday, August 12, 2012

I had no idea Barney was gone......

Suaimhneas síoraí phíosa, Barney. An t-imreoir bainseó mó riamh.

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

A reason to come back time and again.....

     I've been wandering around SL for many a year, alone, and with dear friends and lovers.  Recently, I've been rather bored with it all, since Derren has moved in RL, and his internet is spotty to say the least, and he's not been able to be inworld for weeks now.  (His 'net is supposed to be back up and running by the 16th, though, and I can't wait!  FB hugs just aren't the same!)  I usually just log on to build, since I have to pay tier on a mostly unused homestead, and my builds seem to be taking off on MarketPlace, as they are covering most of the tier. Our favorite club closed after many years, with a LOT of unnecessary drama, due primarily to a downturn in the RL finances of one of the principles, which is happening more and more I've noticed all over SL.
     All that whining aside, though, there are those bright moments that remind me of why I love SL so much, even when I'm on hiatus from it.  Mistletoe Ethaniel, one of my oldest friends on SL, and a very dear RL friend as well, now, had a personal RL emergency (I won't go into details, but you can link to her blog from mine is you wish to know them.), and Derren and I offered the club as a venue for her to do an emergency fundraiser.
     It worked.  BOY, did it work.  Not only was the goal met, but, amazingly, most of the donations came from people that couldn't even GET to the club.  The generosity and love of the folks on SL is what keeps me coming back time and time again.
     With the deepest heartfelt thank you, and admiration for all my SL peeps,

 P.S.  Got another new build up for sale on MarketPlace.
 P.P.S.   On a bet with myself, after a convo Derren and I had the last time he DID get to be inworld, I                                       attempted to make Tel into a twinky elf.  LOL!  It was fun, but will DEFINITELY be temporary!  D:

And, that should about bring us up to date, class!
Peace and love to all,

Wednesday, June 27, 2012

New build for MarketPlace!

Well, I've not been inworld as much as I'd like, due to RL time constraints (and Mom's health, and yardwork, and... and... and.... everyone knows the summertime in SL drill, right?), but when I have been in, I have been working on some Star Wars themed sculpted builds for a friend's Onderonn sim (with which I've been having problems concerning the sculpts "reverting" to a different type after I gave them to her... strange.  I need to see if I can fix that, and soon!  She gets a bit temperamental about that stuff, seeing as she's a Sith and all!  LOL!) and working on this little critter.  I'm rather pleased with this one, as it is not only "land ready" with a fairly small footprint, but also can be a stand alone skybox.  Now, to just find the time to get it all linked and uploaded to MP, as I KNOW everyone is just waiting with baited breath for my next "great thing!"  "Shut up, and GIVE ME YOUR MONEY!"  Heeeheeheeeheeeeeheeeee.........

*Peace and Light to all*

Thursday, June 7, 2012

Wow, so it's been a while!

Wow, so it's been a while!
     I thought I'd better update this, before it dies of sheer entropy.  Heh.
Derren is back in SL, for the most part, though both of our RLives are hectic as hell, and keep us both from spending as much time together as we'd like.
     My RL job hours have changed, which makes it even harder for me to get inworld before totally ridiculous hours for him, but we manage, somehow.
    Inworld, he's busy, busy, busy... he's been working on the new Elven part of our homestead, with fantastic results!  I can't wait to see what he does with it next.  Also, our friend Mistletoe Ethaniel and her sister, Clover Windlow, are working on an area for the SLB9 party, and Derren is making a video of it for her, and Tel and Siddhana (my female alt) are in it!  Woot!  I'll place the LM after it's open, but for now, it's TOP SEKRIT! (Though I'm gonna post pics, of course!  Heehee!)
Anywho..... just wanted to update for anyone that might be interested.  Happy SL and RL to everyone! <3
My "sister", Siddhana.  She's the REAL looker in my little bunch of heathens!

Just a sneak peak at the "Top Sekrit Lokashun"!